Begging for Bodhichitta

transforming the mind into the mind of a sadhu, is difficult, even if the mind is trained it is a rough life…
but soaked in Self-knowledge, despite the bedbugs, the fleas, the hunger, the cold, the heat and all other imagined qualities… with self-knowledge one shines like a lamp in a jar, inwardly….

to give up your identity, to give up the you-ness, is scary!
for as long as this body breaths you will have to beg to eat!
for as long as this body breaths it walks as a dead man, a no body, an everybody, living as God… living as one with all beings

abide in substance never in form
abide in substance never in form
abide in substance never in form…

i am not the sculpture i am the clay,
this body this mind and all its perceptions were never mine
yet this body is made out of ME…
everyone is made out of ME…
everyone is ME…

on account of many intellects i am reflected in all individuals as the self…
just like the moon in water, there are many ponds that reflect the moon but there was always only ONE MOON.

Each reflection is obscured by the vibrations in the pond, and in the same way the self found in an intelligence appear to have many qualities…

i am not the pain nor the pleasure.
these feelings were never mine, just a quality of this mind
these thoughts were never mine, just a quality of the mind,
this mind was never mine, it is a quality of the body
this body was never mine, it is a quality of nature
nature; material nature, whos true nature is cosmic consciousness

nature which is ‘wet’ with consciousness, I live in every atom of existence, & also inbetween the atoms…

i have infinite manifestation, which this body is only one aspect of, all beings & things are my manifestation…

this body is just a body , the mind is just a mind…
this person never existed, only a corner of nature, a portion of consciouss-energy. there is no ‘thing’ just part of the scenery….

wearing little clothing, eating beggers portions, wearing the hair in matted knots, surrendering to nature, to destiny, being “eaten” by God, the Ascetic is dissolved into the irriducible absolute, & there fore is never bound…
meditating on “i am Brahman” , one is freed of all relative existence abandons all codes and creeds, seeing them as hollow & non-existent; the “knower” uses false names to describe truth…….

“who cares?” says the “knower”
“if all is one and one is all, how can i ever suffer, how can i die?”
& thus the world becomes the playground for the Ascetic…

the ascetic prattles on about Truth, truth is beyond all words, thus any description is atleast in part non-sensical… the ascetic says “i am the grass, i am the trees, i am the walrus”; but how strange to hear from the human…

after uninterupted reflection, and humiliation burning away all ego, the individual then disappears into that conscious-nature; the only object of adoration, the only “object” in existence….
Ramana says; there is no jnani(knower) only jnana(knowledge)…

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: